urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41 Ashley Ashley 2005-01-24T14:47:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:186485 2005-01-24T14:47:42Z 2005-01-24T14:47:42Z i don't kno who sings it... okay, so when your up super early and have nothing to do on a snow day, yah always can resort to these....<br /><br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a>I stole the first from marissa and the second from britt<br />Basics<br />Name:: ashley<br />Age:: 17<br />Height:: 5'3<br />Hair Color:: brown<br />Eye Color:: blue<br /><br />School Life<br />What's your school's mascot?: rams<br />School color(s)?: maroon and white<br />G.P.A.?: 3.2<br />Who is your favorite teacher?: Mrs. Palmer-Howes<br />What do they teach?: marketing// accounting<br /><br />Internet<br />Do you use any instant messengers?: yah<br />If so, which ones?: AIM<br />About how many hours a day do you spend online?: not many at all anymore<br />Do you have a digital camera?: I do!<br />If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?: nope, i take pictures of other people most of the time<br /><br />Music<br />Do you play any instruments?: nope<br />If so, what one(s)?: <br />3 Favorite Genres Of Music:: I dont even know<br />3 Favorite Bands:: couldn't tell yah<br />Do you go to concerts and/or shows?: Nope<br />What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?: never been<br />What is the least you've ever spent?: never been<br />Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?: It's corny, but way easier than carrying around your shit.<br />Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?: haha yes, sort of. <br />Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29?: even if they were numbered I probably wouldn't notice<br /><br />Word Association<br />Blue:: skies<br />Camera:: digital<br />Boy:: you*<br />Pretty:: funny<br />Pants:: that black belt*<br />Music:: neat<br />God:: controversy<br />Sweater:: vest<br />Live Journal:: getting pointless<br />MTV:: music<br /><br />Labels:<br />Do you think labels are dumb?: Well sure<br />Why or why not?: because its just sort of a waste of time?<br />What do people label you as?: I'm not really sure<br />How/Why did you get this label?: <br /><br />Which Is Worse?<br />Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: Emotional, most definately<br />Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: oh boy. tough choice!<br />Being Deaf/Being Blind?: they're both just awful.<br />Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?: being bored, i hate sitting still doing nothing<br />Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?: im not sure, either would suck<br /><br />Love<br />Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?: yah definately.<br />Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?: I guess, but I'm not really sure<br />Are you romantic?: i dunno, not really.<br />Are you in a relationship now?: :(<br />If so, for how long?: :(<br />If not, how long have you been single?: :(<br />What song describes your love life right now?: --<br /><br />Ranomosity<br />War: Good or Bad?: what is it good for? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!<br />What do you think of designer labels?: some of them are nice, some of them are weird.<br />Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: paris hilton<br />What is it with guys and cars?: i dunno<br />Do you sing?: not well<br />If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?:<br />Kiss or hug?: depends on the mood and everything.<br />What color is your room?: navy blue<br />How old is your mom?: 43<br />Black and white or color photos?: i like color, but black and white can look awesome with certain things<br />Who cuts your hair?: marilyn<br />What color is your toothbrush?: blue and white<br />What color is your hair brush?: black and orange<br />What kind of hair products do you use?: herbal essences<br />Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?: i don't kno<br />Are you sexy?: nope<br />What color do people tells you looks nice on you?: yellow<br />What color do you think looks nice on you?: i dunno<br />Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?: i hate shopping period, but i guess clothes out of the 2<br />Who do you sit with at lunch? whoever is at that lunch<br />Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: no<br />Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: i don't kno<br />What is the website for one of your favorite bands?: <br />Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you? around the same age<br />Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: not really<br />Who was the last person you hung out with?: besides myself... tom<br />What did you and that person do?: what we always do... :) video games and such<br />Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?: sometimes, yes<br />Are you a people-pleaser?: sometimes, but i dunno<br />Do you dye your hair regularly?: nope<br />What about your eyebrows?: nooo<br />Do you wear makeup?: at some points<br />If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female?: I am.<br />Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?: unedited when i buy them<br />Can you beatbox?: nope<br />Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast?: yah<br /><br /><br />ALL THE QUESTIONS THEY NEVER ASK<br />state your name for the court please - Ashley<br />when is your next birthday? may 31st<br />who do you think is the hottest celebrity? i don't even kno anymore, ive lost all of my interests in most of the celebrities i use to think were hott<br />what do you think about right before you go to sleep? whats going on in my life, you*<br />what does your cell phone look like? silver peice of shit<br />do you ever get jealous? of what/who? yes...i shouldn't but whatever<br />how do you sleep? (toss and turn, position, etc) on my stomach, sometimes pressed against the wall due to lack of room, lol.<br />what were some of your favorite tv shows as a child? Salute your Shorts, boy meets world, all of the nick shows<br />what is your biggest internal fear? being alone. losing certain people.<br />what are you majoring in? / what WILL you major in? next year im majoring in business management<br />who is.. <br />your best friend to talk to? spalton or mick or tom.. depends on what its about<br />your best friend to hang out with? same from the last one<br />your best friend for advice? mick<br />your best friend to joke around with? tom<br />your guy/girl friend youd be most likely to date sometime? the one i had been dating silly<br />what do you sleep in? shorts and a tshirt/tanktop<br />do you snore? no, i just breathe really deeply<br />what is your favorite bath and body works scent? i have no idea<br />what is your future house going to look like? big and nice... one that i dunno a major league baseball player would live in... lol<br />what was the last thing you thought about? this chapstick sitting here<br />what do you do when your upset? get mad and cry.. i cry for no reasons sometimes, ie yesterday, weird <br />favorite ice cream flavor? vienna mocha chunk or chocolate chip cookie dough<br />who is your idol (celebrity wise)? selma (however you spell her last name, not blair) nah, just kiddin, i don't have one<br />ever done a research paper? yes many<br />has anyone close to you died? yea...a few <br />what's made you the happiest in life? little things that happen make me happy<br />what member of the opposite sex do you think about during the day? you* obviously<br />did you ever like the spice girls? who was your favorite? kinda... sporty spice <br />do you want kids? yah<br />what will you name them? well, there will be 3 of them... joey (girl), Landen (boy) and hopefully a third ;)<br />what song reminds you of being in high school? i dunno<br />What do you think of........?<br />of your best friend? I love him to peices<br />of just relaxing? its nice<br />of partyin/clubbin? meh<br />what is your favorite celebrity quote? "never let the fear of strinking out keep you from playing the game" babe ruth<br />what is the nicest thing a person of the opposite sex has done for you? taken my hand and walked down the beach during sunset, held me in his arms, kissed me and made me the happiest person in the entire world... most romantic thing EVER! and i mean it<br />what is the nicest thing youve done for the opposite sex? i try to do nice things all the time, but yah, i dunno<br />have you ever thought about your wedding? yepp<br />do you know the person that sent this to you? yah, i stole it from britt<br /><br />okay, so that was a complete waste of time, but i don't feel like updating about my boring life. so im gonna go talk to mick, shower and just relax. peace out urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:186322 2005-01-16T17:20:23Z 2005-01-16T17:20:23Z Green Day I haven't updated in over a month and a half. Things have been crazy since then. My aunt passed away which was really hard to deal with, but I got through it all. Another aunt was in the hospital with a heart attack. I have to have an ultra sound and some tests done on my kidney's next week. My dad was in the hospital for a possible heart attack. Joe Berg just passed away. CVS sucks a lot and I need to find a new job. But yah, some things have been good. I got accepted to Nichols College to study Business Management. I have been talking to a lot of old friends again which is making me happier. Then there is everything with Tom. I dunno how to look at it all, good or bad. But yah, it's a learning experience and I am hoping everything comes out the best, cuz I love the kid. But yah. Softball batting practices started and thats okay I guess, nothing too exciting. Been going to the track meets every week. Watched dodgeball last week with Stacy, pretty fun time. I duno, maybe I should go work on some finals stuff and I will try to update again soon. Peace out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:186031 2004-11-22T20:31:41Z 2004-11-22T20:31:41Z At the moment, i am content but confused and i dunno what about or why. but yah, gonna go and do nothing, update will be later.<br /><br />&gt;Do You Have... <br />Any sisters: val<br />Any brothers: no<br />Any pets: a dog and a cat<br />A disease: i hope not<br />A personal phone number: nah<br />A leather jacket with studs on it?: cant say that i do<br />A heroin needle: nope<br />A Car: yah<br /><br />Describe Your...<br />Personality: bitchy.. nice.. happy.. i dunno, its a mix of things<br />Driving: haven't killed anyone yet<br />Room: blue and i share it =)<br />School: sucky..<br />Relationship with your parents: good<br /><br />Do You... <br />Believe in love at first sight?: no<br />Consider yourself a good listener?: yep<br />Consider yourself a good friend?: yah<br />Get along with your parents: usually<br />Save your e-mail or conversations: some<br />Pray: nope<br />Like to make fun of people: no, unless they are my friend and they did something dumb<br />Like to talk on the phone: not really<br />Get motion sickness: at times<br />Eat chicken fingers with a fork: no<br />Type with your fingers on home row: no, not usually anyways<br /><br />What Was/Is (or Are)... <br />Right next to you: a fan<br />On your mouse pad: i don't even kno where it is<br />Your dream car: i want a mitsubishi eclipse or pontiac grand am... nothing special<br />Your bedtime: whenever<br />Under your bed: boxes<br />The single most important question: Will you marry me?<br />Your bad time of the day: at night when i get restless and grouchy<br />Your worst fear(s): being alone, being stabbed/shot<br />The date?: 11.22.04<br />Your scariest moment?: i dont remember<br />Craziest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s)?: a lot of different things <br /><br />Favorite...<br />Number: 23<br />Color: orange<br />Day: saturday<br />Month: July<br />Song: --<br />Movie: Dirty Dancing.. walk to remember<br />Season: Summer<br />Class: accounting<br />Drink: mocha coolatta<br />Veggie: Cucumbers<br />TV Show: 7th heaven, gilmore girls, boy meets world, one tree hill<br />Radio Station: 94.5<br />Store: American Eagle<br />Animal: kittens or mini yorkshiere terriers<br />Flower: rose i guess... the one i got on my coursage for prom!<br /><br />Love + Relationships...<br />Do you have a bf?: yah<br />Do you have a crush?: my bf<br />Why do you like this person?: he's amazing<br /><br />The Past...<br />Last thing you heard: the theme song for boy meets world<br />Last thing you saw: a sock<br />Last thing you said: hey val<br />Who is the last person you saw?: val<br />Who is the last person you kissed?: thomas<br />Who is the last person you hugged?: thomas<br />Who is the last person you fought with?: thomas<br />Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: my mom<br />What is the last TV show you saw?: boy meets world urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:185777 2004-11-19T19:47:35Z 2004-11-19T19:47:35Z I really don't feel good, it's not just a physical thing, its more of, well everything. i dunno, i messed up. i know i have, i dunno how to fix it. things are okay i guess, but i feel like crap. i got a 1060 on my sat's, so now its a 1080, not very good, but whatever. i think im gonna go walk the track and think a bit, i dunno. maybe an update later.<br /><br />i love you thomas lee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:185466 2004-11-13T21:02:41Z 2004-11-13T21:02:41Z Smashmouth Yesterday was good and bad. School sucked, as usual, very boring. After school I just hung around here with Tom til the game. Went early to take pictures cuz it was snowing and I liked it. I got some good pics I am excited about. Talked to some people. It was senior night so all of the parents were there and stuff. Good time. Matthew sang the national anthem. Chilled with katie and Stacey, made a good plan for the T-Day game =) But then evil happened and Tom got hurt in like the 1st quarter but still played and in the 3rd I had to leave to bring him to the hospital. We met his mom there. Got out around 11. He seperated his shoulder, I feel so bad. But today I got sent home from work cuz I am sick and I have been lazy all day. Tonight is a party and then tomorrow, who knows. But I am gonna go and try to do something productive. <br /><br />&lt;3 thomas lee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:185289 2004-11-11T13:13:28Z 2004-11-11T13:13:28Z Saved By the Bell theme song Haven't updated in quite a while. Things are going good. Tom's bday was last Saturday. School is getting even more boring. We have today off for Veteran's Day. It's 8 and I am up, blargh. I had to bring Tom to practice, but it's cool cuz now I can color =) Coloring relaxes me and makes me feel better. Things are surprisingly going really well with everything. I think I know what I wanna do with my life, I think. lol. I saw Michael when we all went to wright's for tom's bday....23 of us, hehe. But yah, he was there and he made me happy. But yah, one of these things then color time... byebye ((i'll try to update more))<br /><br />I love you thomas lee.... with all of my heart &lt;3<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a>[4 beverages you drink frequently]<br />1. soda<br />2. milk<br />3. juice<br />4. <br /><br />[5 TV shows you liked when you were a little kid]<br />1. Barney<br />2. Salute Your Shorts<br />3. Sister Sister <br />4. Boy Meetr World<br />5. full house<br /><br />[4 places to go in your area]<br />1. softball field =)<br />2. bowling (yuck)<br />3. movies<br />4. mall (not really in my area tho)<br /><br />[4 things to do when you're bored]<br />1. music<br />2. computer<br />3. color<br />4. Watch TV<br /><br />[4 things that never fail to cheer you up]<br />1. thomas lee<br />2. coloring<br />3. hugs<br />4. hot shower<br /><br />[about 10 years ago]<br />1. I was 7<br />2. I just started coming to Northbridge <br />3. I was cute<br />4. Rachel Sasseville was my best friend<br /><br />[about 2 years ago]<br />1. I was 15<br />2. I had an eyebrow ring<br />3. I didn't care about myself<br />4. I had a lot of friends<br /><br />[about 1 year ago]<br />1. I was 16<br />2. I started to like Tom (again) hehe<br />3. I got my first tattoo<br />4. I was a junior<br /><br />[today...]<br />1. My hair looks so funny and I love it<br />2. I woke up at 6:30<br />3. I drank soda cuz someone drank all the applejuice and milk<br />4. I have nothing to do<br /><br />[4 things you would eat on the last day of your life]<br />1. Pizza hut pizza<br />2. sour patch kids<br />3. Mashed Potatoes<br />4. ice cream cake<br /><br />[4 CD's from your collection that you will never get tired of]<br />1. Beach Boys<br />2. Ashlee Simpson<br />3. Dashboard Confessional<br />4. NSync... hah<br /><br />[4 holidays you have taken]<br />1. Hampton Beach with the fam and Mike and his fam<br />2. Hampton Beach with Thomas &lt;3<br />3. Disney with the fam x 2<br />4. Maine with my dad<br /><br />[4 things you'd like to learn]<br />1. photography<br />2. non jealousy<br />3. how to play all the video games tom plays<br />4. how to run a business<br /><br />Yah, i dunno. im tired now and sore and yuck. buh bye! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:184881 2004-11-04T19:28:30Z 2004-11-04T19:28:30Z Dunno what to tell yal.<br /><br />im sick, which sucks cuz i feel yucky and get grumpy.<br /><br />i love my boyfriend to death. his bday is saturday =)<br /><br />school is okay. nervous about college.<br /><br />i think i might know what i wanna do with the rest of my life.<br /><br />softball soon.<br /><br />work sucks.<br /><br />&lt;3 i love you &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:184694 2004-10-29T18:50:36Z 2004-10-29T18:50:36Z Today I did something dumb and acted stupid, I am sorry and hope you forgive me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:184503 2004-10-28T19:05:41Z 2004-10-28T19:05:41Z Dare You to Move- Switchfoot I haven't updated in a while and I figured maybe I will. Lately things have been very very good. Things with the boy are awesome. Things with school are going good with a few classes in the exception. College is going to be a pain in the ass and hard to deal with. I think I am only gonna apply to like 3 schools, but I am pretty sure I know where I wanna go, if all goes well, which I am happy about. Tom's bday is in 9 days, which I am excited about, it should be a really good time. Friends, well thats a different story. The ones who are there are there and the ones who aren't, I don't really care at this point. Family is good, can't complain too much. Work is okay, only working 2 days this week, which is good cuz I get it all done with in those 2 days and can do whatever I want the rest of the week. I just talked to Mike which I haven't done in quite a while and that made me happy. Kid works way too much, but he's doing good. Softball started last week and that definately makes me a lot happier and relieves a lot of my stress, hopefully I will stay healthy and improve this winter, cuz I really wanna do good. I am in the mood to go out and take pictures, I don't know why or what of, but I wanna. Everyone is talking about the Red Sox, and I am not goona. Congrats to them tho. I think I am gonna go and do a few english papers and my physics. I'll update more later.<br /><br /><marquee>I love you thomas lee</marquee> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:184132 2004-10-24T15:53:34Z 2004-10-24T15:53:34Z usher and alicia keys Waking up to your face is like a dream come true...<br /><br />Okay so today is me and tom's 8 month. it has been such an amazing experience. i love you. <br /><br />Friday I went to the Northbridge vs. Burncoat game in Worcester. Brought Brittany and Katie, it was a fun trip up there and we had a singalong on the way home. The game was a good one and it should have ended a different way, but whateva. Uhmm some comments were made that pissed me off beyond belief and I came to the conclusion that I just don't give a damn anymore, and you know who you are. You've changed, well you were like this before just not as bad, and I don't wanna have to deal with it anymore. Call me a horrible friend, I don't care anymore.<br /><br />Yesterday I went to Nichols College with Tom. It was nice. I dunno if I wanna go there or not tho. Stopped at Eblens. Came home for a while then left to go to wright's for my cuzins bday party. That was a trip. Then back here for the sox even tho I fell asleep. <br /><br />This morning I had practice at 10. It was just a short one and pretty pointless. Met a few new people and such. Now I have to write my english paper that I am going to end up putting off for as long as I possibly can, lol. Nothing much really going on later, just sitting here in an empty house, kinda weird but nice at the same time. gotta get my work schedule for next week.<br /><br />I love you Thomas Lee &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:184014 2004-10-20T18:27:42Z 2004-10-20T18:27:42Z AvRiL lAvIgNe I haven't updated in quite a while. Things are going well. Tom is here and it's wikid awesome. I love falling asleep and waking up with him here =) I love the kid. 8 months this Saturday, hehe. But yah. School is good i guess. I don't think it;s gonna really change. I am glad it's senior year tho. I dunno really what to say, sum school work to do. I started working at CVS in uxy yesterday, I'm not a huge fan of the job, but wateva. Going to Nichols Saturday with Tom and my dad and mom and such. Wright's Saturday night for my cuzin's sweet 16 bday. Sunday we start practice for the 18 under softball team. Uhm, yah I am gonna go and do some school work. Leave comments, I like them =) Byebye<br /><br />I love you thomas lee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:183793 2004-10-06T19:56:43Z 2004-10-06T19:56:43Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br />[ x ] Spell your first name backwards- yelhsa<br />[ x ] Wallet - it's jean...old and watev<br />[ x ] Hairbrush - orange and black<br />[ x ] Toothbrush - orange and white<br />[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - my earrings, class ring, 2 other rings, my neclace and the 4 plastice bracelets<br />[ x ] Pillow cover - 2 plaid, 2 dark blue and a light blue one<br />[ x ] Blanket - my quilt, and my fleece, and a comforter or 2<br />[ x ] Sunglasses - silver frames and they fade... i dunno<br />[ x ] Underwear - blue<br />[ x ] CD in stereo right now - a rap mix i made<br />[ x ] Piercings - 17<br />[ x ] What you are wearing now - sweats and a tshirt... oh and my moms slippers cuz my feet are cold<br />[ x ] Hair - in a pony tail<br />[ x ] Makeup - none<br /><br />WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)<br /><br />[ x ] In my head - alicia keys and usher- my boo<br />[ x ] Wishing - it was warmer right now<br />[ x ] After this - cvs then getting tom<br />[ x ] Talking to - noooooooooobody.<br />[ x ] Eating - nothing<br />[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone,who would it be? - i dunno<br />[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - michael, i miss him<br />[ x ] Is next to you - a fan<br />[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - walk to remember, dirty dancing, i don't even kno, so many of them<br />[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - homecoming, college visits, softball starting again<br />[ x ] The last thing you ate - ice cream<br />[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - deathly? nothing really.<br />[ x ] Do you like candles - they are aight.<br />[ x ] Do you like hot wax - it;s fun to play with.<br />[ x ] Do you like incense - not really.<br />[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - im not sure.<br />[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - nah<br />[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - like 40 hours<br />[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - have a job<br /><br />[my name is]: ashley<br />[love is]: undescribable and incredible<br />[i dream about]: a wide variety of things<br /><br />-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .<br />[had sex]: hmmmm<br />[made love]: i suppose i did<br />[been in love]: yes ma'am.<br />[cried when someone died]: yeah.<br />[lied]: ya<br /><br /><br />-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-<br />[coke or pepsi]: rootbeer<br />[flowers or candy): im not sure, candy i guess <br />[tall or short]: you best be taller than me.<br /><br />-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-<br />[what do you notice first?]: body.. smile.. eyes..<br />[last person u slow danced with]: thomas<br /><br />-W H O-<br />[makes you laugh the most?]: tom prolly<br />[makes you smile]: a lot of my friends do<br />[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: no one really<br />[do you have a crush on?]: my boy<br />[has a crush on you?]: i dunno<br />[easiest to talk to]: spalls. tom. mase.<br /><br /><br />-D O. Y O U .E V E R-<br />[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: no.<br />[save aol/aim conversations]: I did a few times<br />[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: not really<br />[cried because of someone saying something to you]: yah<br /><br />-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-<br />[fallen for your best friend]: kinda<br />[been rejected]: yah<br />[rejected someone]: i guess<br />[used someone]: nope.<br />[been cheated on]: yah <br />[done something you regret?]: i guess<br /><br />-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-<br />[you talked to on the phone]: my dad<br />[hugged]: tom<br />[you instant messaged]: no clue<br />[you laughed with]: ak and rachie<br /><br />-D O .Y O U-<br />[color your hair]: no.<br />[ever get off the damn computer?]: sometimes!<br />[habla espanol]: yah<br /><br /><br />-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-<br />[smoke cigarettes]: nope.<br />[obsessive]: no<br />[could you live without the computer?]: i guess<br />[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: 200<br />[drink alcohol?]: no<br />[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: they both hurt quite a bit <br />[trust others way too easily?]: yes.. and no. <br /><br /><br />-N U M B E R-<br />[of times i have had my heart broken?]: never really.<br />[of hearts i have broken?]: none<br />[of boys i have kissed?]: uhh.. and meant it? 2.<br />[of girls i have kissed?]: and meant it? none<br />[of tight friends?]: a few<br />[of cd's that i own?]: i dunno<br />[of things in my past that i regret?]: i dunno<br /><br />today was okay i guess. i think i may have narrowed down the schools to 3. my mom is being dumb and i can't stand it anymore.<br /><br />i love you thomas lee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:183384 2004-10-05T19:59:09Z 2004-10-05T19:59:09Z Kelly Clarkson- Break Away So Tom's family decided they weren't gonna move ot Texas so they returned Saturday morning which was so awesome. He came over at like 6 cuz they had to unpack everything and whatever. Spent the evening with him. Sunday I chilled with Tom's family and watnot, that was fun, watched the game and basically just was happy that Tom was actually here with me. Monday school was pretty good. Everyone was hugging Tom and everything, it was so good to see everyone happy he was here and kno he was happy that he is back here. Went and talked with a woman from Nichols, it actually could be a possibility to go there maybe, seems like a nice school, but I dunno really. Today wasn't too bad I guess. Just a very long day. Classes were boring. Went to Balmer for block 7 and all I really did was seperate papers and then me and Tom brought them to all the classes. I need to get going on the whole application process and figure out where I wanna go to college, cuz I am not sure. I need to also start rewritting my college essay cuz the one I already wrote sucks. I dunno, I wanna go to a good school and get a good education and everything. I wanna study Business Management I think. It seems like it would be a fun job or something, I dunno. I'm looking at all state schools. I kinda wanna play softball, but I dunno if I would even be able ot play D3. I dunno. We will see i guess. Speaking of softball, it starts back up this weekend. I am happy about that, it takes my mind off of things and makes life much easier. Football game in Auburn on Saturday at 2. Should be fun. Homecoming next weekend, just going to the day, kinda all set with the dance. I dunno, haven't made a real update in a while and just checkin in I guess. I am gonna go watch a few minutes of the Sox then go get Tom from practice. I will update more soon.<br /><br />I love you Thomas Lee &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:183179 2004-10-02T17:38:20Z 2004-10-02T17:38:20Z break away- kelly clarkson weird how things change so much and so fast<br /><br />&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:182820 2004-10-01T00:40:01Z 2004-10-01T00:40:01Z Dashboard Confessional fuck everything i said in the last entry.<br /><br />the most important person who has ever stepped foot into my life (besides my mommy) is on his way to live in Texas unwillingly for the next 5 weeks. it is killing me to see him and his sisters have to do that. i mean, it's just so dumb and pointless and blah, i could og on for hours.<br /><br />im done with that.<br /><br />i love you thomas lee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:182652 2004-09-28T23:22:12Z 2004-09-28T23:22:12Z Avril Lavigne Awwwww fuck yah bitches.<br /><br />I am such a happy girl right now.<br /><br />You are so fucking hott and so amazing.<br /><br />I love you to death thomas lee.<br /><br />Things are awesome!<br /><br />I miss some people like woah!<br /><br />*mouahz* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:182289 2004-09-28T10:52:06Z 2004-09-28T10:52:06Z time is narrowing down and things are getting closer and closer. but i gotta be strong... i gotta be strong for you. i love you with all my heart.<br /><br />weekend was tough. we made it through it. this week will be tougher and the 5 after thta even harder. i hope everything goes well today. <br /><br />i love you thomas lee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:182103 2004-09-23T22:57:48Z 2004-09-23T22:57:48Z Dashboard Time is dwindling and things are just get harder to deal with. I am really gonna need friends through this all, and I hope that the people who read this will make sure that I don't isolate myself more than I am already. i don't know, it's so hard to be in love and have that taken away from you. And I feel that I have no one to turn to, and the ones I want to turn to, I can't. <br /><br />Lately all of my updates have been sad and pretty much about the same thing. Sorry for that, it's just the most important thing to me and yah, it sucks.<br /><br />I got Tom's senior pic today. What he wrote on it made me smile, laugh and cry. It was odd. <br /><br />I hate this feeling. It makes me feel horrible that I could ever feel this way. The things I'm going through will hopefully make me a stronger person. What has scared me the most, I have never been like this before. I have never cared and things couldn't break me down. Now I am a freaking wreck and in love with an amazing person. It's so weird.<br /><br />I wanna go to Maine to see ym cousins so bad. I miss them so much. I don't want them to move to Arizona, specially before I get to see them. I want to go and talk to my cuzn, she understands me. I need her right now.<br /><br />I wanna see Michael. I miss him so much. He is my big bro. I need him now more than ever, and it sucks. <br /><br />I want my friends back. I need them back. I have messed up. There are people I wanna be friends with, but can't.<br /><br />Tomorrow night is the football game in Bartlett. I am driving out there, cuz I wanna see my boy play. I hope they do well and win. <br /><br />I wanna spend the night with Tom. I just wanna be... happy I guess.<br /><br />Whatever i can't type more cuz he's the only thing on my mind. So I'm gonna go.<br /><br />Possible road trip to Texas too. Fun stuff.<br /><br /><marquee>I love you</marquee> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:182007 2004-09-23T10:29:35Z 2004-09-23T10:29:35Z i'll be- edwin mccain my senior pics are in... leme kno if you want one cuz i don't even kno who to write them out to =)<br /><br />i love you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:181647 2004-09-20T00:15:59Z 2004-09-20T00:15:59Z Meh, don't bother reading it...<br /><br />Okay, so things just get worse and I am waiting til I actually hit rock bottom cuz if I haven't yet, I should be within days. While all the stress sits on me with colleges and school and applications and what I want to do with the rest of my life, I have the possibility of the best thing that has ever happened to me have to leave me for 5 weeks which is sooo hard for me to deal with and then I get thrown on top of it all, my cuzin and her 2 daughters and husband are moving to fucking Arizona. This makes me soooo mad. I love those guys to death and granted they live in Maine now, so I don't get to see them all that much, but I mean, when will I ever get to see them if they are in Arizona? I have come to also realize that the friends I once did have, I no longer do. I have like completely shut everyone out and it was good for a while, cuz it made things easier, but now I just, I dunno. I realized the other night there are so many people I am glad that I have been staying away from, but there are a few that I want to see and spend more time with. I wanna go away to school, but at the same time I wanna stay in Mass. <br /><br />Sorry, big rant.. I'm done.<br /><br />I love you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:181295 2004-09-19T02:18:50Z 2004-09-19T02:18:50Z I need friends, cuz there is no way in hell I am going to be able to get through this<br /><br />I love you &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:181187 2004-09-18T12:50:35Z 2004-09-18T12:50:35Z Last night was the football game in Oxford. I brought chaaasah and brittface. It was a good time, minus sum wikid annoying people. I got to watch my boy play, which made me happy :) I love watching him. Then after that I went up to the school with britt and saw stacey and waited for the boys to get back. Saw tom for a bit, brought him home. Now for today, I have not a clue. I think i'll be home alone prolly for the most part, kinda good, but kinda sucky, i dunno. <br /><br />I love you so much. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:180980 2004-09-16T22:49:32Z 2004-09-16T22:49:32Z It's been a while since I last updated. I'm not even gonna go into everything, cuz well, no one really reads this anyways. Some things are good and some are bad. <br /><br />I am really trying to deal with the fact that in 13 days there is a chance that the best thing that has ever happened to me may be leaving and I won't be able to see him for over a month. I really don't even know where to begin to try to be okay with the matter. I can't, it's not possible. But yah, I am done bitching, cuz well yah. I love you to death and I'm not gonna stop trying til the car drives away.<br /><br />I don't even know what else to say. School sucks, it is so pointless and boring. Football game tomorrow night, should be a good time. i guess I just wanna spend as much time with you* as possible within these next 2 weeks incase things don't go our way, I want things to be okay if you have to leave with us and yah.<br /><br />I'm outtie. &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:180562 2004-09-11T21:51:53Z 2004-09-11T21:51:53Z Things lately have been such a mess. But once i think things are good and clear, I get something else thrown at me. I want you to kno, I've never felt this strong about anything and whatever happens will only bring us closer together and make us stronger people. Nothing can take me away from you and I am willing to do anything, no matter what it takes. I had a lil, I don't even kno what to call it, this morning. With you there telling me it was all going to be alright and just things that you said, it made me realize that, yah, it is going to be alright. It's gonna be the hardest thing I've ever had to do, if all of this ends up happening, but I am willing to do just that. I love you to death.<br /><br />I've realized never say things can't get worse, because trust me, it always will. I've been learning a lot of things the past few weeks, it's been a rough time and I am learning. I wanna travel more. I wanna go see my cuzins in Maine and I want to go back to Vinalhaven to see Jeremy and just be there. I want to do so much. But mostly, I wanna be with you when I do all of this.<br /><br />Yah, so last night was the football game. After that I relaxed here with the boy. Then this morning he came over and we just rested and I loved it so much. Went to Millbury to get a new game. Now I think I am going to the movies tonight to see Cellular. But I ma outtie, peace. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:softballfreak41:180348 2004-09-08T18:27:15Z 2004-09-08T18:27:15Z my main and only concern at this very moment is you*. <br /><br />you mean the world to me and i love you to death.<br /><br />that's all i can think about right now, so i guess i am gonna go do that.